Tuesday, May 26, 2009
On Being Zen
Just caught up with a friend and got updated on how other friends have been doing. It makes me sad to hear about their progress. Or should I even call that progress?
Sure, they are doing mighty fine. We have a dean's lister, a doctor in training who's doing great in his studies, a genius in NYU etc. But they are screwing themselves up in relationship matters. Going after a girl who's a friend's girlfriend, purely for the sake of snatching her away from him; flying to Europe to chase a girl, and after being rejected, sinks into some form of depression; breaking up and going back to the same girl over and over again...
I cannot understand why these smart people end up doing foolish things like this. It seems difficult for people to be kind to themselves.
I am stupid and I don't have big ambitions. I am not in a relationship and I am very happy. Most importantly, I appreciate myself and am kind to myself.
I am only 23 and I'm already so zen. And I feel great about it.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
4:14 AM
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Direction-less
Okay I don't know what to do now. Should I find a full-time, perm job and start work in June, or should I get a part-time/temp job for the time being.
Here's the problem. I want to get the yoga instructor certificate BADLY. But I have no idea when exactly will the course I want to sign up for commence. I only know it's gonna be this year, but this year can mean a month from now, or 7 months later. So am I supposed to get a real job and then quit in a month or a few months' time? Or should I just get a part-time/temp job (like waitressing or whatever) so that I don't have to write "Because I want to do yoga" under "Reasons for leaving previous job" when I fill in my job application in the months to come. Neither do I want to confess to my new boss that I left my first job in less than half a year because I am afraid it will reflect badly on me.
But but... It seems inappropriate to not have a full-time, perm job after graduation!!!
Shucksssss. Someone please tell me what to do.
My career plan = Work for a few years to gain exposure/experience & bridging social capital --> Teach yoga & figure out how to establish a cult.
So... Should I be a waitress or some research analyst in some research or whatever firm.
Anyway, I look ultra strange in office wear. Arghh. What is WRONNGGG with me.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
3:15 AM
On Being Zen
Just caught up with a friend and got updated on how other friends have been doing. It makes me sad to hear about their progress. Or should I even call that progress?
Sure, they are doing mighty fine. We have a dean's lister, a doctor in training who's doing great in his studies, a genius in NYU etc. But they are screwing themselves up in relationship matters. Going after a girl who's a friend's girlfriend, purely for the sake of snatching her away from him; flying to Europe to chase a girl, and after being rejected, sinks into some form of depression; breaking up and going back to the same girl over and over again...
I cannot understand why these smart people end up doing foolish things like this. It seems difficult for people to be kind to themselves.
I am stupid and I don't have big ambitions. I am not in a relationship and I am very happy. Most importantly, I appreciate myself and am kind to myself.
I am only 23 and I'm already so zen. And I feel great about it.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
4:14 AM
Sunday, May 03, 2009
Direction-less
Okay I don't know what to do now. Should I find a full-time, perm job and start work in June, or should I get a part-time/temp job for the time being.
Here's the problem. I want to get the yoga instructor certificate BADLY. But I have no idea when exactly will the course I want to sign up for commence. I only know it's gonna be this year, but this year can mean a month from now, or 7 months later. So am I supposed to get a real job and then quit in a month or a few months' time? Or should I just get a part-time/temp job (like waitressing or whatever) so that I don't have to write "Because I want to do yoga" under "Reasons for leaving previous job" when I fill in my job application in the months to come. Neither do I want to confess to my new boss that I left my first job in less than half a year because I am afraid it will reflect badly on me.
But but... It seems inappropriate to not have a full-time, perm job after graduation!!!
Shucksssss. Someone please tell me what to do.
My career plan = Work for a few years to gain exposure/experience & bridging social capital --> Teach yoga & figure out how to establish a cult.
So... Should I be a waitress or some research analyst in some research or whatever firm.
Anyway, I look ultra strange in office wear. Arghh. What is WRONNGGG with me.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
3:15 AM