Wednesday, November 26, 2003
lalala.. beautiful egypt.. ^^
** read up on egypt n dropped a few lines on what i tink of egypt n my trip there in 2 wks' time..
wonder if my perception will change after the trip.. ^^V
EGYPT
egypt...
5000 years of civilisation..
the development of the mysterious country..
where pyramids tower..
in the midst of the concrete jungle..
"Egypt is the gift of the River Nile"..
the oasis which signifies life, fertility and development..
but underneath the beautiful surface..
is where peril really stealth..
away from my cosy home..
into the land of great civilisation..
i'm out the explore the wonders..
n let the mysteries be uncovered..
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brrr... getting quite excited over my trip 2 egypt..
i'm gonna c pyramids..
i'm gonna buy pyprus 4 evry1 if i can afford..
i'm gonna cruise along nile river..
i'm gonna visit the valley of kings n queens <-- did i get the name rite? hmm.. :P
i'm gonna see the treasures in the egyptian museum...
and most importantly...
I'M GONNA SEE THE NILE HIPPOS!!!!!!
cheers!! *yay!! claps!!!*
p.s. oh.. for the pix.. credit goes 2 the sites on egypt i've surfed.. i forgot the url.. oops..
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
8:01 PM
Monday, November 24, 2003
I DYED MY HAIR ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!
it's BLACK now.. lalala... so happy!!!
hmm... actually i wanted to dye it violet.. but i was rather afraid dat it'll b a flop again.. so i chose black..
actually.. it's blue black.. but as i've said.. the blue wldn't show.. so it's juz black.. ^^V
anyway.. i never had such black hair b4.. so i guess i look kindda weird in it..
*looks so fake on me... geez.. brrr... even my sis pointed dat out..*
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CHRISTMAS *random tots*
my family dun celebrate christmas..
in the sense,
we dun eat turkeys
or light the trees..
we're not christians..
so it's juz different.
we dun feel the same way they do.
but i luv christmas..
cuz the overwhelming festive atmosphere
spread across the world
like a giant strawberry milkshake... *winks*
sweet, but not sickly.
i luv it.
the trees in my little garden are not lighted.
but those along the streets are.
we dun play xmas carols at home.
but my french neighbour's blasting found its way into my house.
we didn't intend to eat a traditional xmas meal..
but the restaurants we dine at provide nothing but them.
somehow
we're in it.
everyone's in it..
christmas..
there's no way u can stay out of it..
esp when u're in a multicultural, multi-racial society.
but i wldn't try to escape.
cuz i luv christmas. ^^V
*reminder to yuzhe: christina aguilera's special will b on channel news asia on christmas day.. 7.30pm!!!*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
2:13 AM
Saturday, November 22, 2003
a quick post b4 i dive under my warm covers..
hmm.. i slept for arnd 15 hours after the lep camp..
tot it was gonna b bad.. but it turned out 2 b quite fun..
*note: i'm referring to the nite activities.. hee~*
FRENS
got to noe some of the HC lepers better...
n surprisingly dat includes my clazmates..
din rly interact wif them in sch/claz..
HAIR
my hair din rly get me in2 any trouble..
except wif my frens..
the teachers juz let me off *all but wei lao shi thou.. sobz.. T_T*
but yar.. my frens laffed at the experimental failure on my hair..
i noe i look weird!!!
ppl.. pls gimme time to dye it back!!!
i will i will!!! (^_^")V
MYSELF
cldn't hide my lousiness during the camp..
i'm super slow when it comes to bathing..
i leave things in the rm when i'm not supposed to..
i unintentionally bring unnecessary things along when i'm out *like my whale n comb*
locked xiya n yuzhe out cuz i was slping n cldn't wake up when dey knocked on the door..
was enthu when i'm not supposed to..
kept silent when it's time to play n talk.. *like during mealtimes*
.............
.........
but i did try my best to show concern 2 my frens...
prepared the covers for my dear room mates..
switch off the fan when it's getting too cold at nite..
bought a powerpuff gerl's water bottle for ivan..
woke cailing up to slp under the covers instead of on top of them..
.............
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wadeva.. juz sum reflection.. will write more again.. tata.. time to slp!!! yay!!!!
*christina aguilera did a gd job darting osbourne.. osbourne picked on her in the 1st place.. hmpH! :p*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
7:31 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2003
CUTE!!!!!! * i mean the guy.. hehehe.. * ^^V
but isn't he cuter than the little gerl?
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to tired to tink rite now.. shan't write anything...
but i'm quite freaked by tml's camp..
cuz of my hair..
hope nothing will go wrong..
prayers...
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
11:42 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2003
this is for shuhan, lan jie n hebe..
dis is dedicated to the male population ... hehe..
she's rated the hottest gerl in the korean music industry... i tink she's tite too!! *smiles*
the name is hyori
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scattered tots: *no link thou*
DYED
my hair wasn't too black.
it was quite brown..
or at least,
when the sun shines..
it's brown.
but now,
even without the sun,
it's brown.
but i'm still the same.
the chinese alwiz identify themselves with black hair.
my history teacher pointed this out when he saw my dyed hair.
i noe of ppl who dye their hair to move away frm their chinese identity.
they haf the same mindset as my teacher i guess..
black hair = chinese
but they shd stop deceiving themselves.
they can change evrything,
their hair color,
their skin color,
tinted contacts can do some work too.
but
the blood still runs within.
we're chinese.
we can't change the fact.
that's why we haf the term "chinese american".
or is it "american chinese"?
colors of dyes will fade.
but the color of the skin wun.
nothing will change.
no matter how hard u try.
but why try?
i do luv the american culture.
but i luv some aspects of chinese culture too.
that's how "hybrid theory" comes in.
i luv hybrids..
they combine the best of different things.
.......................
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wadeva..
can't tink of anymore things to crap on..
tata..
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went plaza hotel for buffet juz now..
n i'm stuffed to the brim..
buttons bursting..
oh no.. (T_T)
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:55 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2003
SHOCKING!!!!! before n after pix of korean celebs..
.... the power of surgery...!!!!! *faints*
(to be continued.. inspirational lyrics below!!! =P)
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this is dedicated all those who's troubled over rejection *steals glances at evry1*
hmm.. this might b useful to u peeps..
stay strong.. b a fighter.. lala!!! =)
*dun tink it's applicable to any1 thou... unless.. hahaha* -- evil grin..
Christina Aguilera - Stripped - lyrics
Fighter
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
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i shocked myself today..
wanted to dye my hair to make it look NATURAL brown..
the color i chose wasn't supposed 2 b too far off my original hair color..
it's supposed to b NATURAL... *i did say dat!!!*
but... DANG!!!... yarh... my wish is not granted..
i'm gonna drown myself in tears!!!!!!
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unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:20 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
this is dedicated 2 stella, yuzhe n xiya.. *feeling so nobel*
and this.. SUPER jingbao for cailing n amm... *guess who?* *winks*
the 5566 sun dunno wad guy!!!! enjoy!
credits to soompi forums...
erm... i'll post more tonite.. i'm in the lep rm now.. muz go for pw in 10 mins.. bye!
GUYS...
i'll post sum pretty gerls' pix for u all tonite..
tink i zao4 fu2 ren2 qun2 in dis bloggie... thank me evry1!!! ^^V
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
9:08 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003
this is to enlighten ZHIPING... :p
*or do u alrdy noe but is out 2 suan1 me 4 my biasness..? grr.. so evil!!*
BLUE has 4 members.. *nods to minwei*.. but i onli like one.. hehee..
(credits to officialblue.com ... again *hides*)
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to keep up wif the soccer season..
this is dedicated to xiya.. DAVID BECKHAM
*hmm.. still can't figure y u like him.. (^_^")*
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devon aoki.. she's a jap n german mix.. sooooo pretty!
hmm.. dun u tink she looks like one of the portraits in the old, english, victorian castles?
she' juz so speacial!
credits to soompi forums.. lala! :)
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after posting all the visually appealing pics.. lala.. it's time 4 me to rattle again..
dis hols seem so full of activity..
my EGYPT tour and the LEP camp..
it's like oh-so-interesting.. yayy!!!
random tots again:
RED
red.
it's deep.
it flows within.
inside the body.
blood.
it intrigues the mind.
it touches the soul.
it injects the spirit.
it fills the heart.
*this is not a peom!!! it doesn't look like one, does it? hehe :P.. it's juz wad i tink the color red is.. i luv red!!! ^^V .. it's quite lame thou.. sorry.. i'll try 2 put more tots in2 my future post.. i promise!! (^.^")*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
9:44 PM
ok.. credits to officialblue.com... ^^V *nice nice*
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hmm.. i dunno wad to say abt dis..
but it juz leaves me speachless..
when i realise that i'm not what i look.
or rather,
i dun appear to b what i really am.
i do care.
but it's written on my face that i dun.
i do think.
but it's carved on my forehead there's nothing behind.
i do listen.
but imaginary ear plugs seem to stuff both my ears.
i do study.
but my grades juz wun reflect the effort i've put in.
i haf a heart.
but it's not pounding loud enough to be heard.
i have a voice,
and i'd luv to be heard.
why do ppl brand me the way i'm not?
i scream in detest n resentment,
hoping to erase the marks left on my skin.
but the scars still remain.
when will things change?
thank u 2 all those to cared 2 listen,
and learn abt wat i am inside.
to ppl who still dun undst,
i'm sry but i nv meant 2 hide.
i shout it all loud,
but do u bother to hear me scream?
p.s. i'm writing this to clarify sum misconceptions dat ppl may haf.. ^^V
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
5:28 AM
Sunday, November 09, 2003
sorry peeps.. i noe i've been grumbling abt all the fake vs truth thingy for a looooong time..
but yar.. pls bear wif me.. i've been suffering accusations cuz of it..
sorry sorry... *hides*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:41 AM
MISUNDERSTOOD
i may do things that i hate,
but it's not against my wish.
i'm doing them willingly,
in order to make others happy.
i am happy.
but do u believe i am happy?
why is it that you haf to smack the sticky label,
with a the word "FAKE" inscribed on it?
and tell the world that i'm hiding my feelings,
as though i'm cunning and evil.
i did that out of good will.
but do u believe i haf no ill intentions?
when is it that people can undst
that hiding does not mean deceiving.
it's merely showing the flip side of myself
which is still my true self.
how can i not be me?
i can control my emotions.
that's why when i'm sad,
i can still smile and play,
happily.
i'm not being fake.
juz revealing the little happiness i haf left in me,
and keeping the immense saddess within.
but that's still me.
i didn't force myself to smile.
my heart told me to smile.
am i mizunderstood?
or is it dat u refuse to beliff i'm able to handle all these?
maybe u juz feel that i'm plain fake.
yeah..
maybe i shd go back to prehistoric times,
and live in caves and under trees..
i can't be fake then.
goodbye to the modern civilisation.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:17 AM
Saturday, November 08, 2003
opps.. forgot to credit the pix..
credits go to soompi.com... haha..
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random tots:
ppl arnd me often condamn superficial relations...
they perceive lies as a mouldy piece of cookie..
yucky..
but,
how real can some1 be
if he claims that he's alwiz real?
i'm not too sure about it..
but i doubt any1 can be 100% real.
isn't it?
besides..
if the world is full of nothing but truth,
then truth will become unworthy.
it is becuz truth is hard to come by in this world,
that makes people treasure it more than it shd b.
it is becuz there are lies..
that truth becomes appreciated.
i don't know.
am i lying now by writing the above?
i dun feel so..
maybe i am?
well,
then i must be lying to myself..
how do i justify?
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stop all the condemning pls...
i'm tired of all these.
even if it means u're speaking the truth.
if lies can bring harmony,
then shdn't it be more valuable then truth?
well.. i'm lying,
am i?
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:25 AM
GUYS!!! cheers to me!!! such BEAUTIFUL BoA pix i've found yar? hehehhee.. feel so wei3 da4 for posting her pix for all of u to enjoy...... cheers to me!!!!!! very visually appealing ritez?
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went pw-ing dis morning in sch.. all went well.. except the fact dat my part 4 op haf changed.. which means i gotta write my script all over again.. hmph! to tink i was sooooo proud of my original script!!! now i can't use it anymore.. sobz..
oh.. den later i went eating in lavendar wif mommy.. ate dumplings.. very nice.. feeling stuffed even till now.. bet i'll get fat.. den i'll get laffed at... *glares at evry1*
WHY IS MY FACE ROUND? AND WHY MUST IT BE SOOOOOOOO FAT?!?!?!??!?!!
life's so unfair... grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *looks at boa...* <-- why isn't she fat? hmph!
aiya... i'm not talking sense.. better stop now b4 i get outta my mind.....
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dear a13... i hope i'm wrong.. but i tot dere's quite alot of internal conflict brewing sumwhere.. let's pray pray pray dat i'm wrong... but if *touchwood* u ppl feel it too... hope we can all do our part in resolving it.. i bet no 1 wants anything big n bad to happen.. gd luck!
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lalala... gonna take a nice, hot bath now.. tata!!!
*gerls.. i'll post nice pix for u all 2 enjoy another day..*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
2:14 AM
Friday, November 07, 2003
hiaz....... today is a day of DEPRESSION...
well xiya noes why... yuzhe noes why.. wadeva.. *blinks*
juz now i was discussing wif yuzhe how come i get stuck when speaking chinese sumtimes..
when actually my spoken mandarin is quite fluent..
it's like duh... i speak chinese at home 2 my parents..
den i realise ppl do get stuck at times.. when dey're in the english mode..
i'm not the only one.. at least yuzhe's wif me..
sounds dumb.. but i tink dis is a great discovery...
at least i dun feel inferior dat i'm facing dis kindda dumb prob..
anyway.. juz made a new discovery.. it's 12.10am now.. but feeling v high...
solving a historic mystery at dis time of the day feels rly great..
hahahahhahahaha.................. ammily...... i luv u!
lalalaa... go slp now... bye bye all!
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
7:16 AM
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
lalala lalala lalalalala.. lalala lalala lalalalala la~!!!!! (sing 2 the tune of jingle bells) yay!!!!!!! i can finally sing happily in my bloggie without getting into trouble wif ppl *glares at yuzhe n xiya*.. n without getting my LURVER *hi ammily* jealous.. hehehe!!!!!!
yup yup... so my bloggie's finally up!!! cheers evry1..!!! ^^V
hmm.. 2day was FULL OF PW... yeah.. really need a toilet bowl 2 puke into. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT (x25!) <-- datz times 25 factorial in case u din realise.. hmph! it's juz so frustrating..!!! i wana present nicely n formally but i ended up swaying alot cuz i was nervous.. shuzhen suggested 2 glue me down but i doubt it'll work anyway.. dat cave woman will nv gif smart suggestions.. hehe =P
n my DEAREST ammily kept trying 2 make me jealous today... grrrr.....!!!!! i'm gonna kill u!!!! *glares* but dun worry amm... i'm a nice gerl.. will sacrifice myself for u to persue ur happiness.. sobz... (T_T) muz rmb my da4 en1 da4 de2 k? hehehe....
lalala.. mommy's asking me 2 eat dinner now.. tata!!!
hugz n kisses.... <3
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
3:04 AM
lalala.. beautiful egypt.. ^^
** read up on egypt n dropped a few lines on what i tink of egypt n my trip there in 2 wks' time..
wonder if my perception will change after the trip.. ^^V
EGYPT
egypt...
5000 years of civilisation..
the development of the mysterious country..
where pyramids tower..
in the midst of the concrete jungle..
"Egypt is the gift of the River Nile"..
the oasis which signifies life, fertility and development..
but underneath the beautiful surface..
is where peril really stealth..
away from my cosy home..
into the land of great civilisation..
i'm out the explore the wonders..
n let the mysteries be uncovered..
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brrr... getting quite excited over my trip 2 egypt..
i'm gonna c pyramids..
i'm gonna buy pyprus 4 evry1 if i can afford..
i'm gonna cruise along nile river..
i'm gonna visit the valley of kings n queens <-- did i get the name rite? hmm.. :P
i'm gonna see the treasures in the egyptian museum...
and most importantly...
I'M GONNA SEE THE NILE HIPPOS!!!!!!
cheers!! *yay!! claps!!!*
p.s. oh.. for the pix.. credit goes 2 the sites on egypt i've surfed.. i forgot the url.. oops..
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
8:01 PM
Monday, November 24, 2003
I DYED MY HAIR ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!
it's BLACK now.. lalala... so happy!!!
hmm... actually i wanted to dye it violet.. but i was rather afraid dat it'll b a flop again.. so i chose black..
actually.. it's blue black.. but as i've said.. the blue wldn't show.. so it's juz black.. ^^V
anyway.. i never had such black hair b4.. so i guess i look kindda weird in it..
*looks so fake on me... geez.. brrr... even my sis pointed dat out..*
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CHRISTMAS *random tots*
my family dun celebrate christmas..
in the sense,
we dun eat turkeys
or light the trees..
we're not christians..
so it's juz different.
we dun feel the same way they do.
but i luv christmas..
cuz the overwhelming festive atmosphere
spread across the world
like a giant strawberry milkshake... *winks*
sweet, but not sickly.
i luv it.
the trees in my little garden are not lighted.
but those along the streets are.
we dun play xmas carols at home.
but my french neighbour's blasting found its way into my house.
we didn't intend to eat a traditional xmas meal..
but the restaurants we dine at provide nothing but them.
somehow
we're in it.
everyone's in it..
christmas..
there's no way u can stay out of it..
esp when u're in a multicultural, multi-racial society.
but i wldn't try to escape.
cuz i luv christmas. ^^V
*reminder to yuzhe: christina aguilera's special will b on channel news asia on christmas day.. 7.30pm!!!*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
2:13 AM
Saturday, November 22, 2003
a quick post b4 i dive under my warm covers..
hmm.. i slept for arnd 15 hours after the lep camp..
tot it was gonna b bad.. but it turned out 2 b quite fun..
*note: i'm referring to the nite activities.. hee~*
FRENS
got to noe some of the HC lepers better...
n surprisingly dat includes my clazmates..
din rly interact wif them in sch/claz..
HAIR
my hair din rly get me in2 any trouble..
except wif my frens..
the teachers juz let me off *all but wei lao shi thou.. sobz.. T_T*
but yar.. my frens laffed at the experimental failure on my hair..
i noe i look weird!!!
ppl.. pls gimme time to dye it back!!!
i will i will!!! (^_^")V
MYSELF
cldn't hide my lousiness during the camp..
i'm super slow when it comes to bathing..
i leave things in the rm when i'm not supposed to..
i unintentionally bring unnecessary things along when i'm out *like my whale n comb*
locked xiya n yuzhe out cuz i was slping n cldn't wake up when dey knocked on the door..
was enthu when i'm not supposed to..
kept silent when it's time to play n talk.. *like during mealtimes*
.............
.........
but i did try my best to show concern 2 my frens...
prepared the covers for my dear room mates..
switch off the fan when it's getting too cold at nite..
bought a powerpuff gerl's water bottle for ivan..
woke cailing up to slp under the covers instead of on top of them..
.............
........
wadeva.. juz sum reflection.. will write more again.. tata.. time to slp!!! yay!!!!
*christina aguilera did a gd job darting osbourne.. osbourne picked on her in the 1st place.. hmpH! :p*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
7:31 AM
Sunday, November 16, 2003
CUTE!!!!!! * i mean the guy.. hehehe.. * ^^V
but isn't he cuter than the little gerl?
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to tired to tink rite now.. shan't write anything...
but i'm quite freaked by tml's camp..
cuz of my hair..
hope nothing will go wrong..
prayers...
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
11:42 PM
Saturday, November 15, 2003
this is for shuhan, lan jie n hebe..
dis is dedicated to the male population ... hehe..
she's rated the hottest gerl in the korean music industry... i tink she's tite too!! *smiles*
the name is hyori
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scattered tots: *no link thou*
DYED
my hair wasn't too black.
it was quite brown..
or at least,
when the sun shines..
it's brown.
but now,
even without the sun,
it's brown.
but i'm still the same.
the chinese alwiz identify themselves with black hair.
my history teacher pointed this out when he saw my dyed hair.
i noe of ppl who dye their hair to move away frm their chinese identity.
they haf the same mindset as my teacher i guess..
black hair = chinese
but they shd stop deceiving themselves.
they can change evrything,
their hair color,
their skin color,
tinted contacts can do some work too.
but
the blood still runs within.
we're chinese.
we can't change the fact.
that's why we haf the term "chinese american".
or is it "american chinese"?
colors of dyes will fade.
but the color of the skin wun.
nothing will change.
no matter how hard u try.
but why try?
i do luv the american culture.
but i luv some aspects of chinese culture too.
that's how "hybrid theory" comes in.
i luv hybrids..
they combine the best of different things.
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wadeva..
can't tink of anymore things to crap on..
tata..
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went plaza hotel for buffet juz now..
n i'm stuffed to the brim..
buttons bursting..
oh no.. (T_T)
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:55 AM
Thursday, November 13, 2003
SHOCKING!!!!! before n after pix of korean celebs..
.... the power of surgery...!!!!! *faints*
(to be continued.. inspirational lyrics below!!! =P)
************************
this is dedicated all those who's troubled over rejection *steals glances at evry1*
hmm.. this might b useful to u peeps..
stay strong.. b a fighter.. lala!!! =)
*dun tink it's applicable to any1 thou... unless.. hahaha* -- evil grin..
Christina Aguilera - Stripped - lyrics
Fighter
When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
'Cause your bluff time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out of shame, mmhmm
After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
Oh, ohh
Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave, uh huh
After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter
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i shocked myself today..
wanted to dye my hair to make it look NATURAL brown..
the color i chose wasn't supposed 2 b too far off my original hair color..
it's supposed to b NATURAL... *i did say dat!!!*
but... DANG!!!... yarh... my wish is not granted..
i'm gonna drown myself in tears!!!!!!
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unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:20 AM
Wednesday, November 12, 2003
this is dedicated 2 stella, yuzhe n xiya.. *feeling so nobel*
and this.. SUPER jingbao for cailing n amm... *guess who?* *winks*
the 5566 sun dunno wad guy!!!! enjoy!
credits to soompi forums...
erm... i'll post more tonite.. i'm in the lep rm now.. muz go for pw in 10 mins.. bye!
GUYS...
i'll post sum pretty gerls' pix for u all tonite..
tink i zao4 fu2 ren2 qun2 in dis bloggie... thank me evry1!!! ^^V
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
9:08 PM
Monday, November 10, 2003
this is to enlighten ZHIPING... :p
*or do u alrdy noe but is out 2 suan1 me 4 my biasness..? grr.. so evil!!*
BLUE has 4 members.. *nods to minwei*.. but i onli like one.. hehee..
(credits to officialblue.com ... again *hides*)
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to keep up wif the soccer season..
this is dedicated to xiya.. DAVID BECKHAM
*hmm.. still can't figure y u like him.. (^_^")*
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devon aoki.. she's a jap n german mix.. sooooo pretty!
hmm.. dun u tink she looks like one of the portraits in the old, english, victorian castles?
she' juz so speacial!
credits to soompi forums.. lala! :)
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after posting all the visually appealing pics.. lala.. it's time 4 me to rattle again..
dis hols seem so full of activity..
my EGYPT tour and the LEP camp..
it's like oh-so-interesting.. yayy!!!
random tots again:
RED
red.
it's deep.
it flows within.
inside the body.
blood.
it intrigues the mind.
it touches the soul.
it injects the spirit.
it fills the heart.
*this is not a peom!!! it doesn't look like one, does it? hehe :P.. it's juz wad i tink the color red is.. i luv red!!! ^^V .. it's quite lame thou.. sorry.. i'll try 2 put more tots in2 my future post.. i promise!! (^.^")*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
9:44 PM
ok.. credits to officialblue.com... ^^V *nice nice*
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hmm.. i dunno wad to say abt dis..
but it juz leaves me speachless..
when i realise that i'm not what i look.
or rather,
i dun appear to b what i really am.
i do care.
but it's written on my face that i dun.
i do think.
but it's carved on my forehead there's nothing behind.
i do listen.
but imaginary ear plugs seem to stuff both my ears.
i do study.
but my grades juz wun reflect the effort i've put in.
i haf a heart.
but it's not pounding loud enough to be heard.
i have a voice,
and i'd luv to be heard.
why do ppl brand me the way i'm not?
i scream in detest n resentment,
hoping to erase the marks left on my skin.
but the scars still remain.
when will things change?
thank u 2 all those to cared 2 listen,
and learn abt wat i am inside.
to ppl who still dun undst,
i'm sry but i nv meant 2 hide.
i shout it all loud,
but do u bother to hear me scream?
p.s. i'm writing this to clarify sum misconceptions dat ppl may haf.. ^^V
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
5:28 AM
Sunday, November 09, 2003
sorry peeps.. i noe i've been grumbling abt all the fake vs truth thingy for a looooong time..
but yar.. pls bear wif me.. i've been suffering accusations cuz of it..
sorry sorry... *hides*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:41 AM
MISUNDERSTOOD
i may do things that i hate,
but it's not against my wish.
i'm doing them willingly,
in order to make others happy.
i am happy.
but do u believe i am happy?
why is it that you haf to smack the sticky label,
with a the word "FAKE" inscribed on it?
and tell the world that i'm hiding my feelings,
as though i'm cunning and evil.
i did that out of good will.
but do u believe i haf no ill intentions?
when is it that people can undst
that hiding does not mean deceiving.
it's merely showing the flip side of myself
which is still my true self.
how can i not be me?
i can control my emotions.
that's why when i'm sad,
i can still smile and play,
happily.
i'm not being fake.
juz revealing the little happiness i haf left in me,
and keeping the immense saddess within.
but that's still me.
i didn't force myself to smile.
my heart told me to smile.
am i mizunderstood?
or is it dat u refuse to beliff i'm able to handle all these?
maybe u juz feel that i'm plain fake.
yeah..
maybe i shd go back to prehistoric times,
and live in caves and under trees..
i can't be fake then.
goodbye to the modern civilisation.
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:17 AM
Saturday, November 08, 2003
opps.. forgot to credit the pix..
credits go to soompi.com... haha..
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random tots:
ppl arnd me often condamn superficial relations...
they perceive lies as a mouldy piece of cookie..
yucky..
but,
how real can some1 be
if he claims that he's alwiz real?
i'm not too sure about it..
but i doubt any1 can be 100% real.
isn't it?
besides..
if the world is full of nothing but truth,
then truth will become unworthy.
it is becuz truth is hard to come by in this world,
that makes people treasure it more than it shd b.
it is becuz there are lies..
that truth becomes appreciated.
i don't know.
am i lying now by writing the above?
i dun feel so..
maybe i am?
well,
then i must be lying to myself..
how do i justify?
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stop all the condemning pls...
i'm tired of all these.
even if it means u're speaking the truth.
if lies can bring harmony,
then shdn't it be more valuable then truth?
well.. i'm lying,
am i?
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
6:25 AM
GUYS!!! cheers to me!!! such BEAUTIFUL BoA pix i've found yar? hehehhee.. feel so wei3 da4 for posting her pix for all of u to enjoy...... cheers to me!!!!!! very visually appealing ritez?
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went pw-ing dis morning in sch.. all went well.. except the fact dat my part 4 op haf changed.. which means i gotta write my script all over again.. hmph! to tink i was sooooo proud of my original script!!! now i can't use it anymore.. sobz..
oh.. den later i went eating in lavendar wif mommy.. ate dumplings.. very nice.. feeling stuffed even till now.. bet i'll get fat.. den i'll get laffed at... *glares at evry1*
WHY IS MY FACE ROUND? AND WHY MUST IT BE SOOOOOOOO FAT?!?!?!??!?!!
life's so unfair... grrrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *looks at boa...* <-- why isn't she fat? hmph!
aiya... i'm not talking sense.. better stop now b4 i get outta my mind.....
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dear a13... i hope i'm wrong.. but i tot dere's quite alot of internal conflict brewing sumwhere.. let's pray pray pray dat i'm wrong... but if *touchwood* u ppl feel it too... hope we can all do our part in resolving it.. i bet no 1 wants anything big n bad to happen.. gd luck!
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lalala... gonna take a nice, hot bath now.. tata!!!
*gerls.. i'll post nice pix for u all 2 enjoy another day..*
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
2:14 AM
Friday, November 07, 2003
hiaz....... today is a day of DEPRESSION...
well xiya noes why... yuzhe noes why.. wadeva.. *blinks*
juz now i was discussing wif yuzhe how come i get stuck when speaking chinese sumtimes..
when actually my spoken mandarin is quite fluent..
it's like duh... i speak chinese at home 2 my parents..
den i realise ppl do get stuck at times.. when dey're in the english mode..
i'm not the only one.. at least yuzhe's wif me..
sounds dumb.. but i tink dis is a great discovery...
at least i dun feel inferior dat i'm facing dis kindda dumb prob..
anyway.. juz made a new discovery.. it's 12.10am now.. but feeling v high...
solving a historic mystery at dis time of the day feels rly great..
hahahahhahahaha.................. ammily...... i luv u!
lalalaa... go slp now... bye bye all!
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
7:16 AM
Wednesday, November 05, 2003
lalala lalala lalalalala.. lalala lalala lalalalala la~!!!!! (sing 2 the tune of jingle bells) yay!!!!!!! i can finally sing happily in my bloggie without getting into trouble wif ppl *glares at yuzhe n xiya*.. n without getting my LURVER *hi ammily* jealous.. hehehe!!!!!!
yup yup... so my bloggie's finally up!!! cheers evry1..!!! ^^V
hmm.. 2day was FULL OF PW... yeah.. really need a toilet bowl 2 puke into. HATE IT HATE IT HATE IT (x25!) <-- datz times 25 factorial in case u din realise.. hmph! it's juz so frustrating..!!! i wana present nicely n formally but i ended up swaying alot cuz i was nervous.. shuzhen suggested 2 glue me down but i doubt it'll work anyway.. dat cave woman will nv gif smart suggestions.. hehe =P
n my DEAREST ammily kept trying 2 make me jealous today... grrrr.....!!!!! i'm gonna kill u!!!! *glares* but dun worry amm... i'm a nice gerl.. will sacrifice myself for u to persue ur happiness.. sobz... (T_T) muz rmb my da4 en1 da4 de2 k? hehehe....
lalala.. mommy's asking me 2 eat dinner now.. tata!!!
hugz n kisses.... <3
unclaimedpropertyofthecounts
3:04 AM